Depression

Every time I hear someone committed suicide I feel sad. I think how close to suicide I was. How I didn't know what was happening to me. My mind was going crazy. I had too many uncontrolled thoughts. I couldn't sleep. Waking up was a problem I no longer cared. I couldn't see anything good in me. But there was that deep voice that told me fight to be better.

I didn't know what to tell my mother and my close family. It was so shameful I felt a loser for having such thoughts. In the end I took myself to see a shrink. It was a battle. A battle that I only won because I had friends and family who stood by me. God even sent me a stranger(my angel) to walk with me.

It's unfortunate that depression has so much stigma and  many African setting blame it on witchcraft. Friends depression can get to anyone. Even the strongest that seems to have their life in order.

Depression comes from long term pent up emotions or pain. Depression comes from sudden change of life or loss of a loved one. Friends depression can come from stress. while others suffer from high blood pressure , heart attacks , gastric problems , severe headaches because of stress, others suffer from depression.

A depressed person needs love and understanding. Not the stigma I see around.Don't try to tell or force a depressed person to be happy, that is one of the most difficult task. Help them get their self esteem back, it all begins with self actual cleaning. Take them for a massage,help them tidy up their desk and house. Just small steps and they become better.

When God cured me awhile back , I made a vow to give a testimony about where He lifted me from. Unfortunately there are those who have distanced themselves from me soon after. And there are those that have used my testimony to fight to recover or help another recover. My focus remains on the latter. He did it for me He can do it for another.

The sooner people learn to openly talk about depression the more lives will be saved.