Reason for my Happiness

Sometime back a friend wrote and asked me how I am able to keep up a high spirit. She wanted to know if I ever have a dull moment in life. The shocking and surprising thing is that I didn't know that was the message I was sending out because in true sense when she was asking about my happiness I was going through the toughest moment in my life.

I will say it was the toughest because I am not looking forward to having tougher moments. The tough moments had come because I had allowed myself to care and love with attachment. See that time separating myself from those that I loved was really tough. I couldn't imagine losing a friend whom I had known for so long and who was like a sister to me. I couldn't imagine losing a friend who I had already imagined a life with. But you see that tough moment had a lesson for me and that is the lesson I need to share with you.

I realised that completeness will never come because of the moments I am able to share with my friends. I have always been complete in every sense of the world. I learnt to love freely without attachment. By this I mean understanding that each of those I love is complete in every sense of the world. They will and have always had a right to chose who they have in their life and this they can change when they so wish. 

I learnt that I should never tie my destiny with that of another. I learnt that though I may want friendship to extend to the children of my friends, that is nothing I can control. The best I can do is to pray that my children are able to find and make the right friends. I learnt that so long as something has a start it can always have an end. The only thing that has no definite start or end is God. He is the true ocean of happiness, love and peace.
No matter how much we draw from God, He never lacks in supply of love,peace and happiness. 

I also learnt that nature has a lot of things to teach me everyday. Each experience is always a lesson for me to learn. So there you are the reason for my happiness is God , learning to love without attachment and looking for a lesson for each experience I go through no matter how silly, obvious or difficult it may be.